At the nigguhs place.

Here I am,
smoking a cigarette and drinking a beer.
But is this "good life" everyones talking about really worth it?
It kills me inside that im jealous.
Jealous that everyones happy except me.
I thought I was already over the break up,
but reminders of this person makes me want to shed a tear.
I tried everything.
Deleted photos, written notes etc.

But it still hurts me even if the name pops up out of nowhere.
I miss this feeling of being loved.
Taken for granted only for the abuse of my body.
Ridiculous.

It gets so hard fighting this battle everyday,
pin pointed in a corner and i cant run away.
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sticking to being humble thats how i been doin me.
I feel helpless, useless, outta my mind,
always puttin myself last but whens it MY time?
If this is the life, than i drop to my knees.
Im asking for guidance Lord help me please.

Right now, im wearing my heart on my sleeves.