SO IM STUPID. LOL

so basically,
my mother told me that some kid went into my room,
and used a blank cd i needed in order to teach in class tomorrow.
immedietly i rushed out the door at 10:50pm looking for another one.
i had 5 dollars and nothing more because no one has given me money for the whole week.
walking from my house all the way to victoria park at a shoppers drug mart,
i finally get in and find it.
only 2 problems,
it was a 10 pack and 10 dollars.

in utter failure,
i walk back home in shame and anger.
i get home,
laughing starts to happen.
"your so stupid."
i hear it over and over again,
slowly backing into my room.
lights off,
didn't even bother to take off my coat.
i just lay there,
shedding just a tear.
honestly,
no one knows how much it means to me,
to teach something i love for the first time.
now i won't be able to do it...
shame.